For some reason, I’ve always wanted to have someone take a good photograph of me (without me asking them to). Ever since high school, actually. Since everyone had their hands on pretty good cameras. Even when I entered college, I knew there would be a lot of people who were into photography or at least had an eye for how a good photo should look like.

Up to now, on some occasions, I would ask. But for some reason it doesn’t feel right and it would more or less be to my distaste. On the most part I shy away or I would gladly (try) to take photos of people who ask me to.

This whole ordeal makes me feel uncomfortable about my appearance. I know so many good amateur photographers who would befriend other pretty girls to do shoots for them. How I wish they could ask me (probably a petty way for me to stop being so insecure of myself and someone actually affirming me).

I’ve gotten used to the whole thing of them seeing me more as a person they can tolerate with closed eyes. But yeah, I can’t help but wish.

Heh.